I ran into the college gate as if dogs were after me, but the guard already knew I was late as usual, so he didn't bother to check my ID and with a hopeless face allowed me in. Rushing into the classroom, i found my alloacated seat and managed to settle down, not realizing I was still breathing heavily and my classmates were staring at me than that of the question paper.
I wore my specs, drank little water and rotated my head at an angle of 180 degree to see if he even noticed I entered., of course he didn't, Ranker hardly used to raise his head from question paper during exams. I smiled, in my mind wished him 'All the best' and then began searching for questions of which answers I knew (Managed to find few though). I hardly took an extra sheet while didn't miss to notice that he took four, "WHAT THE HELL is he writing" I whispered to myself.
"hey, how was it?" asked Sunaina. "He bloody took 4 extra sheets, what's up with him". Sunaina managed to ignore with a blunt face and we headed to canteen. "Mr. Professor needs to understand, our syllabus was half taught, we hardly had any revision sessions, no notes were provided and yet such a difficult paper" Aditi- our cry baby was as usual cribbing. Rohan came running with a breaking news," Sushant was caught with chits for 4th time and has been restricted, he's year is totally wasted bro" he said. I think mine will be too, I've not even attempted the comprehension part. I am gone this time.
Sunaina with her Kareena Kapoor acting skills began, "Oh my lord! next year this college campus will be so dark, everyone will be so lost, sunshine wont enter these college gates, Mr. Professor would bunk lectures, Canteen guy will stop garnishing the dishes with his highly salty sweat. And what will happen to us? How will our final year go without one idiot in this college? how will we survive, Oh lord please save this college from depletion of happiness!. Bas! Bas Sunaina too much of drama, Ik that Uk that I wont fail, okay?!. Now finish that sweat garnished misal and lets go. I came home with an upset face, after all its necessary to prepare my housemates for the results from exam day itself, so that parents meet is not that horrible.
Political Science it is then, I was totally prepared for this exam. After all, ive been studying this subject since day 1 because I knew if something can stop me entering final year was this deadliest subject ever. it was also his most favorite subject, opposites attract you know. Rushing into the classroom and getting death glares from my supervisor was as normal as brushing my teeth every morning. Again grasping for breath, avoiding eye contact with my classmates I turned 180 degrees expecting no eye contact as always but...."WHAT THE HELL?" I yelled; everybody's eyes on me and supervisors warning being the last warning, i was still unable to digest the fact that he's not in the classroom. Has he gone mad? where is he? Why is he missing the exam? Is he fine? Doesn't he want to enter the final year? All these questions running through my mind, I hardly remembered the answers for the questions lying on the table, I went blank. For one subject that I had studied so hard for, now I didn't remember a word. God knows how I managed to write for at least achieving passing grades. Exam was over, nobody's discussing paper, Aditi is not cribbing, Rohan is not mad at the supervisor for not letting him extra time, Sushant ain't carrying any chits, Sunaina ain't asking me how was it? "Was it that bad?" I asked.
Rohan came to me, grabbed my shoulders and said, "He's no more, Akash died of a heart attach yesterday evening, Ranker has left us forever" I don't remember exactly what he said further, because I only could hear my heart pound so hard like never before had I experienced that. We went to his house, his parents were unable to handle, no one was able to bring them to reality after all they lost their only child who haven't even seen the world yet. I couldn't see their condition and came back home, my parents were in shock too. We didn't eat, we were in absolute disturbance. "How will is parents survive?, Who will they look up to?" My dad said. "I can't imagine the mother's pain, what wrong did she do to go through this, why must have god done this to them? God takes nice people to him, but was this even his age to leave behind his parents with no reason to live?" My mom said in shaky voice.
GOD? Why would he do this? Akash was a genius, he wanted to achieve PhD in Political Science, his aims were to bring political peace in our nation, bring food to poor, make people know the worth of their living in a a democratic country and take his parents to Switzerland. He had high aims and even higher potential to achieve them, He had a pure heart and his deeds showed that. Then Why did he go?
All night I kept wondering, " God takes nice people to him", but...... But what if he keeps doing that, how will people on this planet survive? Will peace ever come here? His self made people will kill each other out of jealousy, hate, lust and what not. Why would he want his created world to be destroyed by his own created humans? Is this how the remaining one's with unkind deeds be punished? Then why does he keep taking away kind people away from this planet? Is he creating a New, happy world of warm hearted, generous people somewhere beyond moon and beneath the sea?
Is he gradually shifting his attention away from us and towards the happy world? Will someday a day arrive when this world is on urge of destruction, people are killing each other and few who are still willing to live, having some faith in lord are bowing down, arms opened and praying the Thee to save this world, stop the destruction, ignore their unacceptable deeds they had performed in past, people will cry, fold hands and demand the open sky to stop the chaos and bring some peace back to the world but actually in real, there won't be anyone listening to these prayers, all of these will fall upon deaf ears, no cries would actually be answered as there won't be anyone up above in the sky to listen, NO GOD will come to the rescue., nobody to help. Because god will be there beneath the sea, adoring the kindness, the generosity within; he would be there where happiness stays among the people who have only love to offer and nothing to bribe, and happy smiles to shower from the pink sky.
There we will stand helpless the way we cry,
And no God will come and help the criminals
In the world of black ocean and deaf sky!
For that he's among those all we lost, his disciples
In the world full of sunshine and joy!
