SHE!
After dealing with few crackheads, crooks and cheapsters all day long, she came home tired, frustrated with a heavy heart, full of tears and a list mind. She was told that she was not that well deserving by some worthless people, she was betrayed and lied to by her dear one's, she felt cheap when eve-teased by few mannerless college going kids. Even after all of this she managed to cone back home before she breaks out. Definitely she couldn't fight back, couldn't resist the feeling of betrayal but she atleast managed to act like she's not broken, she had the guts to potray that she's not weak.....yet!
Fan blowing air, water dripping from the sink tap, head in her hands, legs shaking, a small vein that aches harder in the brain and eyes burjing through every single dripping tear drop. She felt helpless. Actually there was nothing of the above that had happened for tge first time, but the fact that this jept repeating day by day was intimidating. She was struggling for days and nobody noticed, she was upset with her life and nobidy even considered, she felt the fear of failure, it was over and nothing...nothing at all coukd actually fix this. This is ehen she realized that she kept lying to herself about being stronger than ever, being smarted than before, being better than yesterday when actually she wasn't m, she just kept running and now that she ended up in a black hole, she kept cribbing.
That little nerve in brain now ached harder, eyes stopped flowing as eye lids felt heavier. Now that she'd failed miserably she was shattered, she felt the need to loose herself, to finish the chapter for once and forever, she felt the urge to kill her dear self.
Yes! She realized she needs to murder her nice and kind self that had tried more than ever to survive the worst, this self of her's who's helpless cannot tackle the bad in the world, she has to go forever.
Just to raise above the odds to fulfil what she'd dreamt of, to live how she wanted to she needs to loose herself and become the new version that tge bad will accept, the wirst will appreaciate and demons would love. She needs to be how the workd wants her to be, not that nice and soft and kind but smart, sharo and with a devilish mind.
