GOOD BYE!

     My numb face, tears in my eyes, shivering hands, still background and a backlog of several memories in my head, running heart and that barking dog-it wasn't even letting me have that moment. I wanted to leave that place but wasn't just able to stand, I was crying!! People were looking at me,the dog was still barking, kids were playing and anything I could hear was-'his "GOODBYE",

He left me?? Oh my god!! He left?! 

     Suddenly, I remembered the day when my dad put my hand in his and said,"Never leave her alone" to which he replied "NEVER, believe me" I'm not understanding whether I am not able to digest the fact that he left me or I'm not able to believe it!! 

But I knew this would happen, it would end!!!

     I don't know when I got up from the bench and reached the park's entrance, I took an auto and was again lost in that bloody 'GOODBYE'. Was it that easy for him or am I just making it difficult for myself. Few months ago we were so happy, he promised we gonna love each other for life. How did we get here? It's impossible, what went wrong???

     My mom used to say that there's always someone made for you to love and I lost my someone and now left with no one to love what am I going to do,how will I survive?Moving on is just horrifying. Will I ever be able to go to Badshah paavbhaji with someone and enjoy it as I did with him?? Will I ever go on those long drives at marine, midnight and have those dates at Chai ki tapri with two khari's by side with chai and his stupid coffee?, Will I ever hate myself for watching those 90's movies and wasting my weekend as I did with him..... I don't know, I simply don't know!

     Life is going to be hard, harder than it was in his presence!!

     While figuring things out in that auto ride suddenly the auto stops and bhaiyya says, "Madamji Pahunchgaye!" I stepped out and couldn't believe where I was, I turned at that autowalla and yelled at him, "Bhaiyya yeh kidar le aaaye aap??" To which he replied "Are apne address bola to le aya,mera paisa do nahi toh kidar janeka hai bolo aisa chillane ka Nahin"  I told him to take to my dad's place from not to my surprise where I was...

At the person's place who said 'GOODBYE' few minutes ago!!